What's on my mind
Jan. 28, 2026
I'm updating the site during emo hours so forgive the angst... Trying to figure out how to work through the knowledge you've hurt people in ways you can't take back or fix. We live in a broken world, and we are broken people. And we long not to be. Sanctification feels like two steps forward one step back, sometimes. And other times it feels like one step forward two steps back. I will never be as perfect as I want to be. Oh, that I would be able to surrender my desires for perfection, and rest in the perfection of Christ. We do our best, and he forgives us where we fail. And we forgive those who wrong us. And we learn to forgive ourselves. Forgive us our tresspasses, as we forgive those who tresspass against us. And we pray for His Kingdom to come sooner rather than later.
Revelation 21:1-5
1 Then I saw "a new heaven and a new earth," for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. 2 I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. 3 And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "Look! God's dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. 4 He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." 5 He who was seated on the throne said, "I am making everything new!" Then he said, "Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true."
One day, there will be no more pain. In the meantime, would we be strengthened to do good, in the knowledge that God makes all things new, and we are not defined by our past failings.
I just pray that those I have hurt would forgive me.
